someday

"all in good time" i heard him say... and i believed....that life was long. so, i told myself, "someday" and shined it on... now, as my body begins to fail, i've left so much undone. there's too much, and too many, my eyes have never seen. and i feel the long shadow of time, sneaking up behind.... i run. no avail, against my setting sun. i'm filled with a yearning, for the paths i never took. give me a step, a sidelong glance.... a long, loving look. there's a me out there that never was, maybe you're out there, down one of those roads.. waiting..... open heart, open arms, open eyes, for the me, that could have been. to be the yang to your yin.. i bought the lie, of "plenty of time" and i've naught to show, save banal regrets... and still, i waste the hours, like i've any to spare.. as i spin my neurotic tale... as though anyone cares..